Two unrelated topics; one post! It’s like getting two malformed rambles for the price of one!
We beat Illidan last night. It felt not so epic. Our guild took longer to learn Leo than Illidan. He’s the final boss. He singlehandedly brought the well of eternity back. He’s ILLIDAN and he’s a pussy.
Beating Illidan:
Step 1) Listen to Lorelol (Akama is a pussy)
Step 2) Find tank able to shield block on command (<3 Mikedabutcha)
Step 3) Kill Parasites
Step 4) Find 2 tanks able to dodge lasers (No Mr. Bond, I expect you to stand very still while these lasers come slowly towards you)
Step 5) Spread out (Don’t stand next to Illidan)
Step 6) Kill Demons
Step 7) Listen to Lorelol (I hate Maiv)
Step
Collect loot
On the other hand, the whole thing made me kinda sentimental. My Co-gm and I have been through a lot together. I was there for his first Rag kill and he helped me through my first AV. We built this guild that went from Kara to Illidan in a little less than 9 months.
When we killed him we had 10 of our original raiders from Kara still raiding with us. In our 9 month together we’ve seen people get married, had a baby born, had a new job, get fired from a job, be hospitalized, raid from the hospital, graduate college, fall in love, break up, get hit by a car (and raided that night), move out of their mom’s house, move into their mom’s house, move across the country, lose a grandparent, lose a best friend and lose a pet. We’ve seen people come and go, but through it all, this guild has remained something that I’m very proud to be a part of. So we beat wow, just in time for 2.4 to come out. I’m looking forward to conquering those new challenges together.
On the other topic, yesterday I had a stranger whisper me. She told me I was an inspiration to her as a female GM. That I was a role model for female gamers. For some reason I was very put off by this.
I’ve been playing online video games for almost a decade (I’m about to turn 26 and I started when I was 16) and in that time I’ve never really had a role model in a video game. Certainly I’ve met some people along the way that have taught me some game mechanics and some things about leadership. I’ve always been observant about social mechanics of the games I played. When I first played I quickly discovered female gamers were a rarity and, if I didn’t want to draw attention to myself, I should leave my gender a mystery to all but those that knew me very well. As time has gone by and female gamers have become a much larger percentage of gamers, and I no longer mask my gender.
I believe I approach GMing differently because of my gender, and that’s part of why I write here. But, I’m not trying to be a role model for female gamers and certainly not a part of some sort of feminist movement online. If you want a feminist role model take up with Marie Curie, Susan B. Anthony, or Amber Reeves.
Female gamers, you want to look up to me as some sort of role model, this is my advice. Stop looking at other people and start looking at yourself. Go, play your game. Play it well or suck at it. Carry yourself with dignity. Demand to be evaluated for who you are and how you play, not your possession of tits. Ignore people that can’t or won’t get over your gender. Oh, and if you whore yourself out for pixels, you’re still a whore. I hope the pixelated loot can comfort your damaged dignity. As for, I’m going to keep doing what I do. If you wanna respect that, go right ahead, but I’d rather you go do something you can respect yourself for.